Bethenny Frankel shares the deep pain she went through emotionally when it came to a miscarriage she suffered. The Glamour interview will appear in the July 2012 issue and the reality TV star goes into details about what she endured as a result of losing the baby daughter.
“Because my first pregnancy had been complicated, and because I was over 40, the doctor told me that I was “high risk” and needed to take it easy. So I took it so easy. I had to. I was still bleeding, and I was nauseated and uncomfortable—“way worse than last time,” I said to Jason. I felt seven months pregnant even though I was six weeks along. And because we hadn’t planned this, I felt unprepared, like we had so much to do to get ready for this baby. Still, I was excited, if cautiously so, with the words high risk ringing in my ears.”
“Jason picked me up, and we went to the doctor. In the exam room the doctor ran an ultrasound, looking for the heartbeat. Something was wrong. ‘I’m not finding it,’ he said. Jason said, ‘I don’t see it.’ And I’m like, ‘Is this a miscarriage?’ I didn’t know.”I got dressed, we met the doctor in his office, and I launched into it. ‘Is it because I’m busy? My lifestyle? Is this my fault?’ I asked. ‘Absolutely not, absolutely not,’ he replied, before I could dump all my neuroses on his desk. ‘You’re 41. You had bleeding. There’s nothing you could have done.’ And I hadn’t done anything. Since I’d found out, I’d been lying down for an hour or two a day and letting others take up the slack. But I blamed myself—of course I did.”
Frankel admitted she was slightly relieved she wasn’t going to be seven months pregnant when her new TV gig started, but she felt guilty for it. She wonders if all her effort put into her demanding career had something to do with the miscarriage. The reality star said when she was told of the baby’s sex, she lost it. The fact she would have had a girl made her mourn the dreams she had for her other daughter to bond with the baby — how they would grow up together and do girl things.
Will Bethenny Frankel try having another baby with her husband? She doesn’t believe in “trying.”
“People ask me, ‘Are you going to have another baby?’ and I get a little angry,” she said. “I know my shtick is being an open book, but when you ask a woman in her forties that question, it’s not always her choice. I’m healthy and could try again. But I don’t want to be a ‘trying’ person. If it’s meant to be, it will happen.”